As many of you know, I am in the middle of a 3 part surgery on my jaw/mouth. I had an infection in my jaw bone, and it has been one hell of a ride. Now that the worst of the surgeries is over, I am now feeling a pain on the other side of my mouth, and thus anxiety permeates through my entire mindset. What in the world am I going to do if I have to do this alll over again? Am I just crazy? Is it all in my head?
So, naturally, I turn to the expert...Google. BAD idea. According to them, I have one of 53 problems. So then I call my dentist...they of course cannot do anything unless I go in to see them. So, should I pay for peace of mind, or do I wait to see if maybe, just maybe, I am a bit paranoid?
I would love to tell myself that everything happens for a reason, and whatever happens, in the end it will all be okay, BUT, try telling that to my wallet and my fear of dentists/oral surgeons. You see, I am not one to usually jump to conclusions like this on a serious level. I joke around from time to time about average bumps and bruises, but this is different. This feels like a bad dream.
I am sorry to be selfish in my blog today...I just needed to talk my way through my emotions. A big thank you for reading. I will make it up to you by doing a Wednesday entry this week. Hopefully by that time I will be a little more sane. Until then, I will be applying for dental insurance.
I need to be strong. I need to pray.
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.
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